Something weird happened this week that lead me to the realization of how honest I am. I think this is a good thing, but this blog post is going to be full of honesty once again.
These assignments are hard for me. I sat down to look at the assignment and thought, "Oh crap! Where did that rock even go! And, why did I feel like THAT was the object I needed to take." With that said, I didn't put very much thought into this specific assignment in regards to feeling convicted on forgiveness towards another person. So, I reflected on my week and what God has been teaching me. There are a lot of things that could answer that question. I am loving the season that God has me in right now and the things I am learning.
Steve Fowler talked about friends this weekend at church, and that got me thinking. Over the summer, I was not a pleasant person to be around. I had an abnormal critical attitude, and it was reflected in everything I was apart of. Steve talked about gossip and what that does to our friends. I know I am very guilty of this. I gossip about everyone in some way. And I generally feel like it's my right, and I am justified in the things we are talking about. Yes, girls tend to be a lot more prone to this sort of conversation, but I don't like it.
Even without carrying a rock around all week, this has been a pain for me to have to carry around. I am constantly thinking about the words I say, and asking God for how to respond when someone wants to talk to me about other people. Did I improve? Not really. But I am thankful for this conviction, and more aware now than I was in class last week of an area of my life that I need forgiveness from God for, and have a few people I need to apologize to for the conversations I bring them into that are not encouraging or uplifting.
These assignments are hard for me. I sat down to look at the assignment and thought, "Oh crap! Where did that rock even go! And, why did I feel like THAT was the object I needed to take." With that said, I didn't put very much thought into this specific assignment in regards to feeling convicted on forgiveness towards another person. So, I reflected on my week and what God has been teaching me. There are a lot of things that could answer that question. I am loving the season that God has me in right now and the things I am learning.
Steve Fowler talked about friends this weekend at church, and that got me thinking. Over the summer, I was not a pleasant person to be around. I had an abnormal critical attitude, and it was reflected in everything I was apart of. Steve talked about gossip and what that does to our friends. I know I am very guilty of this. I gossip about everyone in some way. And I generally feel like it's my right, and I am justified in the things we are talking about. Yes, girls tend to be a lot more prone to this sort of conversation, but I don't like it.
Even without carrying a rock around all week, this has been a pain for me to have to carry around. I am constantly thinking about the words I say, and asking God for how to respond when someone wants to talk to me about other people. Did I improve? Not really. But I am thankful for this conviction, and more aware now than I was in class last week of an area of my life that I need forgiveness from God for, and have a few people I need to apologize to for the conversations I bring them into that are not encouraging or uplifting.
Jodi, glad to hear God is working in your life and that you're loving the season in your in. Re: seeking forgiveness from those you have gossiped to, please add some comments here after you've done that and how it went, and what you've learned. Appreciate you Jodi!
ReplyDeleteJodi, I grabbed a rock this week too and I ran into the same annoyances as you, well the annoyances of conviction that is. Anyway thanks for sharing this blog and life me, Friend. Praying that it's application doesn't go forgotten.
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